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YTuesday, October 14, 2008' 6:16 AM

Im gonna lose a lot of friends sooner cause the way that i reacted
when im having a boyfriend. Haiz~ I also don't know what the heck im
thinking right now. I don't wanna lose both. My boyfriend and Besties :(
I really don't know what to do. I just feel tired and feel like want to take
a long vacation out from Malaysia! I need sometime to think the way I
reacted. I really didnt notice having a boyfriend will cause so much
problem. What to do now? Can anyone tell me?

Friendship is really important to you. We help each other, love each,
care each other. But I didnt really appriciate what my one and only
best friend care about me. I just called her not to care about me and
forget it. I cried cause of that. I really don't know what to do. I just
feel my whole mind blank and think back the past when im happyily
with her. Im really sorry. Can you forgive me? I just can say even
if you don't treat me as your B.F.F anymore. You will always on my
mind and im happy that you were my B.F.F before. Without you I
guess i still can live but in another way i would be. Maybe not like
last time cheerful and would be lonely no one would ever wanna be
friends with me. Im sorry!

Relationship are also a 3rd important things to you. To find another
half of yours is really not that easy. Need to have the feeling only can
know izit this guy/girl suitable for you. Well, having a relationship must
always remember not to play their feelings or hurt each other. If really
you don't have feeling for you another half, i suggest you should honest to
him/her about that. Don't continue hurt their feelings like that. Does
relationship really that important to us? I also don''t know why in this world
must have LOVE. Without love also can survive right? I have that LOVE feeling
and im addicted to it. I also don't know why. I try to avoid all those LOVE
things but I cant seem to avoid it. The feeling just come and now im in a
relationship. Haiz~ Maybe this is the last chance. If we are over, I don't think
I would ever want to get back again. I will try my very best to last this
relationship! I wont let anybody down anymore. A little problems, me and him
only would settle. I don't want anybody to bother or else I can bet for sure you
guys would hate me forever! Im sorry!

Problems. Althought I hate having problems but is good for us. Cause if in this
world no problems we wouldnt know whether izit right or wrong. I guess i should
settle my problem fair and square. I just hate myself so much! Why does
everything happen on me? I feel like killing myself. I know kill myself doesnt
settle the problem. But I am going to face it! I don't care. Now I must make
everything 100% perfect! Friendship, Relationship, Family, Studies! I don't want
to have many problems anymore. Im really feel tired already! All this problem
just appear in my mind and trying to make my head blow up! I can just straight
away die!

So, Im sorry that i reacted! I really hope we can be B.F.F again! Can we?