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YTuesday, October 14, 2008' 2:45 PM

I always thought I have a happy and great family. But I realise
is a no no. Today i started to notice my mom hated my elder sister
so much. I also don't know why. Izit because her attitude? I really
wish she wouldnt hate it. But no she really hates it! Haiz~ Cause my
sis always shout at her all the time and always wont respect her. Even
is her own mother also won't respect. I also don't know what happen.

I remember there was one time when we were in Sarawak. My sis was
there too. They had a fair there and sell some products. Then business
was okok only la. Then my mother wanted to make business more good
so I don't know what she told my sis and my sis said cannot and wouldnt
work and they kept on argued. I was quiet that time and didnt want to
make so much noise. When we headed for dinner, suddenly they argue
and my father tried to comfort them and don't know what la. Suddenly
my sister anger was so high and she shouted to my dad and said : "
SEE YOUR WIFE LA! HER ATTITUDE LIKE THIS! " Then i was shocked.
My mom scold back her YOU DON'T BE SO RUDE! DON'T MAKE ME SLAP
YOU! I was shocked and don't know what to do. I was really scared. My
sister just walked of like that. Summore we were in Sarawak, Kuching.
My sis just walked away like that. She also won't know where the hell
she would go.

I was so worried about her. My mom just don't care and just keep
lilke scolding her. Haiz~ Since that day onwards my mom didnt talked
to my sis. Even if they were selling stuff also didnt talked. I really wish
to have a happy family. But I guess it wouldnt happen anyway.

I always thought my family was the best! But the other way! Not really
happen. I have this feeling that sooner os later my family is going
to fallen a part then I also no where to go. I really don't want my family
to break a part! T.T I always thought there won't be any family problems
but i was wrong. Now i really face a lot of problems le. And i really
hate it!

Why shouldnt i have older then me few years de siblings? Why does it have
to be 13~18 years older then me de siblings. My friends always mistaken
that my bro and sis are my mother and father. I don't want that way! Is
nothing to be action about. I really want to have older than me few years de
siblings. Cause like this i wont feel any lonely and always get to play.
Haiz~ When I go out with my parents, I really feel jealous about other people
one group of family can go out. But me, is just me and my parents not my sis
and bro. They have their own programme. We wouldnt have family day or
anything. I just feel like an only child. I rather want my bro and sis to marry.
Althought i don't want them too. Now! I started to hate this family! I don't know
why. I really hope some day when i grow up i could just get out from that place
and find a new place to stay! I really cannot stand it! I just don't know why.

I want to have all those happy family. But i know it cant seem to happen even
how hard i try to pray! It wouldnt happen! I can just forget about that wish and
just don't care. I rather care about my parents and my educations. My sis and bro
starting to don't care about my parents. I not sure la. They still got care i know.
But not that much i guess. I don't know la! I really feel very very tired cause of all
this problem. I don't wannt think about it anymore. I am not going to care anymore.

I just hope this day would come! Each family member of mine would be fine! And
won't hate each other!